As I reflect on my four years of motherhood, I realize how much my son has increased my capacity to love. I love my mother and my husband dearly but the love a mother has for her child is indescribable! I mean I love Jayden more than I love myself...I love him so much until it scares me. I feel honored that God would choose me to raise such an intelligent, gifted, and lively little guy. I am feeling all warm a fuzzy on the inside as I talk about my baby boy...lol.
Motherhood brings me great joy but it also brings a lot of fear as well. Am I raising him right? Am I disciplining him effectively? Does he know how much I love him? Will I be around to see him get married and have children? So many worries, questions, and fears! However, I am learning to walk by faith and not by fear. I have to trust that everything I need to be a good mother is already within me. I am learning how to pray more than I worry because worrying won't change anything but prayer will change everything!
A Mother's Prayer: "Lord, I pray that you will crown me with wisdom as I raise my child. I pray that you will increase my capacity to love, forgive, and be patient. I pray that you teach me how to raise him in the fear and admonition of you, O' Lord. I pray that you would keep him healthy and strong, I pray that he would be full of life, and that he will never stop dreaming. I pray that he will grow to be a man of honor, integrity, and courage. May your grace and mercy follow him all the days of his life. Amen."